|travelers on our own journey!|
But truly, my biggest fear is not that I've been unable to promote or network. My biggest fear is that I will never be able to do my best work again. For creating a book--at least for me-- is a very selfish endeavor. It needs great chunks of alone time--thinking time, goofing time, as well as writing time. It also needs very focused brain power. All of which has been in short supply since Rain Dragon's arrival. Which is why my plans for novel #3 have remained just that--plans. No drafts, no outlines, no sketches. My ambitions have been forced to take a backseat as the most I could manage this past year was keeping afloat!
I read somewhere that working moms should shift their attitude towards their careers for the year (s?) after their baby's birth. Instead of trying to achieve ambitious promotions, they should, instead, look at this time as "maintenance."
Even though I know I would've cringed at those words last year, I now embrace them. It's much more comforting to chalk up this past year to maintenance instead of facing the possibility that I've peaked.
And if it was a maintenance year, then that also gives me the power to decide that it's is over. We're now moved into the new house, I've hired a babysitter to help out and the studio is almost in a working state. Hope springs eternal, and hopefully this spring (er, summer) I can start everything anew. Cross your fingers for me!