Some of you many know that I've had a back injury for quite a while. If not, now you do. After a heck of a lot of tests--5 MRIs, 2 EMGs, and 2 nerve velocity tests, and after seeing I don't know how many doctors, it was concluded that I have a herniated disk in my back and one in my neck. The one in the neck is something no doctor seems to care about but it bothers me nonetheless. The back one is causing lots of nerve pain that shoots down my leg (L5 pinched nerve). Sometimes it's tolerable and sometimes it's not. Anyway, after 8 months or so of PT the physical therapist told me she doesn't know what else she can do for me. The doctor there said the same thing and sent me packing. No nice goodbye no nothing.
This, of course, is such a depressing thing! How am I supposed to manage my pain now? Will I forever have awful leg pain episodes? Will I wake up every night in agony for the rest of my life????
There's another reason I've been depressed about this. Tuesdays, Wednesdays, Thursdays, part of Saturdays and Sundays are my book workdays. Book work = solitary confinement. I'm used to solitary confinement. I'm good at it. Or at least WAS. Just like something else I won't mention, people contact is something the more you get the more you want of it... at least for me. I really shouldn't go anywhere or see anyone during the day when I have a deadline. But if I have a medical REASON to leave and see PEOPLE... well... who can argue with that? It's a guilt free trip out into the world.
This may all seem pathetic to some of you but it's what I’m suffering with--pain AND now no reason to get out of the house.
Have no fear fellow readers, I've found a solution. I've joined a gym. Better yet, I'm paying for a personal trainer. I can only afford one for a month but it will be a month of getting out there!
So--am I crazy? Are there others out there like me?